I am sorry today we upset each
other…..HOWEVER…..time is running out on God's
timetable…both for you and the people in this world.
I see a pattern in our lives Brother.
And in love, I give you this pattern on what I have
observed….the difference between what you chose and what I
did. I think my choice was not caused by my
own great intellect or goodness….but because when I did
not get love in my home, I looked for it in God's
creatures and in Him. The reason I want to give you
this pattern…..is because you need to break it….your
choice…the pattern of all of your life….you need to break
it and choose the other road.
As a young, young child, two
children, in a home without love, in a home of anger,
selfishness, hurt, pain, and self centeredness…..looked to
their parents for love. It did not come
because those two parents were each seeking their own
"love" and appreciation. Neither parent could step
outside of their own unfulfilled needs and give to their
children what those children needed…..love, and guidance.
The children were subjected to the disease and emptiness
of their parents in many ways…..and sometimes those ways
were totally unfair, totally wrong, and caused harm that
should not have been, but none of it should have been
lasting harm. One of those children (you)
continued to look towards his parents for justice, love,
and understanding….which never came….because the vessels
were empty. Then that child looked towards
himself and others for that love. The other
child (your sister) realized the damage that was within
their parents and looked elsewhere for understanding and
love and justice. This took place at a very young
Eventually, as I was going inward and
up to God, through His animals, continuing to be obedient
within the home, even tho it was unfair, I did not lie,
tried my best in all things, and took the pain internally
without acting out or becoming rebellious. I
looked forward to a time when I would have my own life
away from the injustice. I started learning about God by
reading Revelations in the Bible and realizing where we
were at in the world and what was to happen. I saw
the pain in the world and corruption and prayed to God at
this young age that He would hurry and destroy the
earth….even if it included me because I wanted His
goodness restored and His perfection. I also
prayed for knowledge and understanding….which He gave me.
That is what helped me survive and come out of our home
situation. I looked away from myself and towards a
greater perfection and truth and goodness. I was too
obedient to the rules. My life was very
lonely…except for my pets and the woods. You were
not there for me, nor were my parents….except for
providing food, a comfortable place to live, clothing, and
security. In their own fashion, they did as
much as they were able. I was obedient to them, and
received more rewards for that obedience. I started
reading books, and through books I found other worlds…and
friends. But, every moment of my life, except when I
was learning something, in the woods, or with my pets, was
lived on the edge of loneliness. That did not
cause me to rebel or become disobedient. That
is what saved me from the route you chose…..that is what
gave me a path to God…..not satan. By remaining
humble under my situation, and by remaining obedient to my
authorities, by forgiving them for their wrong…..God was
able to bring me out of it, with blessings and success in
my future. It was not my brains, or my specialness
that helped me. It was by being obedient.
You started looking towards other
people (all imperfect), fun, excitement, and
disobedience….rebellion. You did not live with
honor…lying to get out of things or to get your way,
cheating in school. You did not respect others or
their property. You sought your own forms of
pleasure and acceptance. You did not give much thought to
others, even as you grew into your teens…..(killing my
only friend, my beloved innocent cat….a dear friend and
companion to a child that was very much alone….an example
of where you were). You were not pleased because he
scratched you because you were holding him against his
will….subjecting your will upon him. Then, without
any honor, you lied and blamed someone else because that
made your life better.) You lived for the
moment, not thinking about your future or anyone else.
You used everyone around you for your own pleasure.
Subjecting your will on others by whatever means you
could…to get the pleasure, love, fun, excitement, that you
felt was your due is how you continued to react towards
life. Your father was not a perfect man…..but he did
want you to learn how to follow rules, which would have
helped you be a success in life. You rebelled.
You succumbed to your hatred. You had only those
rules which glorified your life. Whenever things got
tough you did not see them through….you left, always
seeking a better place to get your fun and pleasure.
You did not become humble, and accept the rule of your
father (even tho he was imperfect…he was the head of the
household.) which, had you done that….even tho it seemed
unfair to you….God would have honored that and brought you
out of it, and you would have achieved success in your
later life. You might have even found out that
the life in your father's house would have improved and
you may have actually gotten what you wanted from him.
That is God's way. Unfortunately you chose the
easy way….satan's way…..and you became trapped in that
You chose DISOBEDIENCE, and
REBELLION. So also did satan, who rebelled
against God, in the heavenly home. "Rebellion" is
the opposite of "humble". To be humble, means one is
teachable. You continued to this day on in
your 60's, in that lifestyle….and that is why God cannot
bless you much because you have put that barrier up which
turns the blessings away. You are not being
punished. Your illness and state in life is directly
related to the lifestyle you chose to live. No
one is at fault. God wants to bless you,
Brother. What happened to you as a child is in the
past. You had free will….you could have chosen
another way to deal with what was going on. Many
children were subjected to what you were….and still also
did not have a good place to live, enough food, and a
comfortable place to stay….and many were still able to
choose the right way when given the chance as adults.
We cannot continue down a path of destruction because of
self pity, or because of what happened in the past.
To every person comes that time when they can make a
choice. The "Orrick vacuum cleaner incidence" today,
(wherein you told me you were going to take advantage of
their TV offer of "using it for 30 days and returning it
if you are not satisfied"...lying and stealing another's
property) was just one more opportunity to choose another
pattern. Those choices will be presented over and over,
until finally time starts running out.
It is not enough to proclaim oneself
as a Christian for the benefits that being Christian might
bestow on one. One must want to be one….desire it in
their heart because they admire the nature of God and
Jesus Christ. I think you think you love Jesus.
I think you are confused and have not realized that when
you love someone, you want to be like them and you want to
please them. Find out what pleases Jesus, find
out what He is like. Jesus would like that.
This earthly life is not about what
we get for ourselves, but about what we do for others.
Most people on this earth, tho, including you, believe
that this life is about what can be gotten for their own
benefit and pleasure, or for those who belong to them.
Which is totally apposed to that which God set up from the
beginning…..even those beginnings wherein satan rebelled
because he didn't like the plan of God.
Brother, accepting Jesus Christ is
the only way out of the "death", forever death, that we
are all headed towards without Him. You say you have
accepted Him, but you are still in this world, thinking as
this world does. If you lie, or steal you will have
no part of Christ, unless you feel bad for doing so, when
it happens, and turn away, repent, stop doing it.
PERIOD. You are facing your end, perhaps sooner than
we would like, or sooner than others. You probably
think that is the most important thing in our life right
now. But it is not. Getting into the next life
is what is most important. Nothing here compares
with the neat things there….and it is forever….and a
totally fair and just place. To do that you need to
walk with Christ….not yourself. You need to break
that old pattern that doesn't work but condemns you to
death as satan desires. Everything you talk to me
about shows that you still lean on your ways, not God's.
There are many people who like satan's ways….self
appreciation, lying, cheating, greed, pleasure seeking,
anger and hate and revenge, taking instead of giving; and
they will never change, even when God puts the world under
the tribulation and Wrath that comes when the 7th Seal is
removed…which will probably start making an appearance
sometime past 2008. No matter how bad it gets, they
will not turn towards God, but will still continue to walk
with satan, who glorifies SELF. Some will finally,
out of fear, turn towards God and ask for forgiveness,
repent, and accept Christ, and start helping others to do
same. But, most will not due to confusion and
deceptions of the world.
God wants you, not just your
mouthings that you want Him, with no substance of change
behind the words. He wants you to be truly wanting
Him, attracted to Him, wanting to tell others about Him.
But gee, to do that you have to learn about Him, don't
you. If you truly were attracted to Him you would
have gotten a Bible by now, so you could learn about Him,
or found the Bible I sent you many years ago. You
would be watching the Biblical programs on TV. He
would have been your top priority, considering the little
time you may have left. Your own tribulation
period…God getting your attention by putting you in a
corner, where you can contemplate your life and what is
left…which is eternity. You could be doing everything
possible to accept Christ and learn about Him, and tell
others so they could have eternal life with you. I
would be warning them of what is coming and that the only
way out of this mess we are in is eternal life….and that
eternal life does not come from emulating or following
satan, it comes only through Jesus Christ as our Savior
and Teacher. Some of us do not need to be backed
into a corner to realize this and we do it with love for
Him because we recognize that His way is the best for all.
We reject all that satan has to offer because it doesn't
You have been rebellious all your
life, seeking your way. Please, before it is too
late, seek God's way….the God of Christ, not satan.
Stop lying, stop stealing, stop taking advantage of
others. Orrick Vacuum cleaners has the right to buy
time on the air of TV and advertise. Orrick's value
has nothing to do with how you perceive them. How
you perceive anything does not give you the right to steal
from them and take advantage of them. Especially if
you are a Christian as you profess to be. Love your
enemies….is what Christ says. That means treat them
fairly. Let God dispense His justice to them when
the time comes….which is just around the corner. The
world as we know it will be mostly devastated. All
those who emulate or follow satan will be destroyed.
God's vengeance will have come. He waits only for
those last few who will turn to Him during the Great
Tribulation that is coming. Most won't, just as you
are not during this tribulation you are going through.
When He does come back during HIS WRATH, the final
devastation, He will rule for 1000 years with an
iron rod. Do you know what that means?
An iron rod does not allow room for any other standard
other than God's. His way Rules.
To bad if you don't like it. Sound familiar?
As imperfect as our father on earth was…..he did have the
authority….and we should have obeyed him….until we had our
own authority in another home other than his.
Now…the good thing about God's rule is that He is
perfect…unlike our earthly father. But there
will be work, and there will be folks during that time who
think He is wrong and that there is a better way.
Just like satan thought there was a better way when he was
at home with God, before our time. At the end of
this 1000 year rule, those who are rebellious will once
more be allowed to mingle with satan….and they will gather
to defeat Christ…..and they will all be destroyed.
God hates evil. He will eventually destroy all evil
because it cannot continue to fester in God's perfect
It is not too late, Brother.
Stop lying. Try to live by the 10 commandments…..I
sent them to you. Meditate on them whenever you are
inclined to break them. Honor (you never honored
your father, even tho he may not have been the best
father….he did provide food, shelter, clothing, security,
creature comforts, etc.) You did not honor your
mother….you left her life pursuing your own happiness and
never gave her a thought or checked in with her to see how
she was doing or relieve her of worrying about you.
You never tried to make her life better. You put the
world and your own pleasure as a god, putting that before
the will of God. We should want His will, not ours.
You have made alcohol an idol, looking to it to solve your
problems. You have misused God's name, claiming to
be a Christian, swearing by His name and not meaning it.
You don't keep the Sabbath Holy. Have you committed
adultery? Have you murdered for gain? You have
stolen, and plot about doing it again. (Orrick.) You
lie as a way of life. (Orrick again.) Have you ever
testified to something falsely, blamed someone else?
Have you coveted someone's goods or status, blaming them
for your condition in life?
Now….I tell you, I am guilty of all
these things. I knew I needed a Savior because of my
transgression against God's law condemns me to eternal
death. I would rather die 1000 times here on earth,
rather than die to my eternal life with God, which only
God can give. Once dead, there is no second chance.
All our chances are here. You are guilty too, and
only true repentance and desire to follow Christ, be His
slave, will save you.
In one second He can blot out all
your sins. But, the minute you break just one
commandment, they all come back, you are condemned once
more. If you don't again truly feel bad and repent,
they won't go away. Every time you truly repent and
ask forgiveness He will once more forgive you. In
the same manner, you as a Christian are to continuously
forgive those who trespass against you. A
circle. God expects us to walk with Him,
continuously trying to honor Him and the great gift He has
given us, the death of His Son, Christ, who paid our debts
once and for all, defeating satan's plan from the
deception and fall of the first man, Adam.
He paid with his Blood, and His life, for us.
Every night, think over what you did
wrong that day, feel genuinely bad about it, and ask for
forgiveness and it will be done…..if you are sincere.
All of my words to you, apply to me,
too. God knows we are weak, but He expects us to
grow and learn, and be sinless through the process I just
told you….repentance. The only way we can do that is
through constant picking ourselves up and asking for
forgiveness when we fall, and trying hard to change….not
accepting that within us that is contrary to God.
Christ is not a band aid, or a
lollypop, something to make us feel better in a
moment of pain or fear or despair (tho feeling better
comes with being a true Christian, knowing what has been
promised to us when we are once more restored and with
God, knowing that He will make all correct again.
That is where we get our joy! In His Will.).
He is a way of LIFE, and He is the WAY to LIFE.
You may be on the last steps of your
life….make the most of it, in the ways that count.
If all goes well….and you have many more years…you will be
able to utilize and enjoy them in a manner which you have
never before experienced…if you follow Him. God's
ways, Christ's ways.
Have you talked to your
roommate about his condition and future without Christ?
Have you talked to your adopted daughter? They are
doomed if they have not truly accepted Christ.
Are you ashamed of Him, that you do not want to share Him?
It doesn't matter if you are laughed at or mocked for His
name's sake. Share Him.
The only thing that is truly
important, the only treasure in this life, is that which
transcends this life into one that is lasting and perfect,
good, and true. That LIFE is through Christ and it
I could not love you more, than to
wish this for you, Brother. It is the greatest form
of LOVE. I would give it to you, but only Christ
can….but you have to be sincere in wanting Him. He
cannot be fooled as can humans, nor can He be used.
I take the time to write these words for you because I do
love you as I do other humans in this world. What I
hope for you I hope for all. If you accept the
challenge of God's walk, pass that challenge on to others.
All people are our brothers and sisters. The only
blood that counts is the Blood, that perfect Blood, which
Christ shed on the cross for us. If that Blood is
within our veins…..we are of the family of God.
That is the only family I care about. I want you to
be truly a part of that family. All other families
will go to Hell with satan, if they have not the Blood of
Christ within them. (You might be interested
to know that I have written such letters as this to our
earthly father. I wonder if he accepted Christ
before he died?) I also gave our earthly mother a
chance to accept Christ. If she was sincere….she
will be part of the family of Christ also.
Christ is so forgiving…..I chose to forgive as He does.
We need to reach up for His hand and
want to be like Him as much as we are able in these weak
bodies. He knows we are weak, but He forgives if we
are truly sorry.
Children can pretend to be sorry with
their mothers and fathers to avoid punishment, but
continue behind the parents back with bad behavior.
God is not human, He knows what is in our hearts and He
sees what we do. We cannot fool Him like you did
with Mom, or may from time to time do with me. God
is not about avoiding punishment. He is about
genuine life change and heart change.
I hope you are sincere, if you are
not, it is not too late. It is not about rewards and
gain in this life. I would like to see you on the
other side in God's world, in His family. We will
have all eternity to enjoy and do things that are good, of
God, Holy, as we will be when we are changed. We
must endure our circumstances and look forward to
eternity, bringing along as many as we can.
Share this (black and white) letter
with your friends. It is not couched in flowery
words, but in truth. If God wants them they will
want Him, forsaking the things that satan offers here,
which are not lasting, and only bring temporary pleasure,
and an eternal death sentence. Do not fear that
which can take your life here on earth…..but fear He who
can destroy and kill your soul (God)!
Satan has planned from the beginning
to distract mankind from returning to the glory that God
planned for mankind. Satan wants us all dead,
forever. Christ wants us all alive forever.
Whose team are you on? Christ has already won, by
dying on the cross. Satan will not die for anyone,
tho he seeks our eternal death. (tho in tribulation, he
may pretend to die and be made new. Do you see why
reading the Bible is important….so we will be warned?)
In the next few years the anti-christ will appear and will
try to eventually pretend to be Christ returned. He
will be possessed by satan. Many, many will flock to
him. Many who attend church will be deceived by him,
because their commitment to Christ was not sincere, and
they did not get the gift of the Holy Spirit which keeps
God's people from being deceived. This is satan's attempt
to LIE and deceive many to their eternal death, as he
planned from the beginning. It comes soon, Brother,
be prepared in your heart, or you will be deceived.
Come out of the world of darkness which satan temporarily
rules, into Christ's light, and stay there by daily
commitment and repentance. Satan most wants and
delights in stealing from God those who had the most
promise. Don't let him, Brother. Turn
your tribulation into a glory for Christ, not a grave for
I love you,
Your Sister Claudia
[ This letter was
written about 10 years ago, and it woke my brother up and
he became a true Christian before he died! My
brother turned to Jesus, and walked into a little wooden
church up in the woods where he lived. He said he thought
the church would fall down when he stepped within it!
It didn't, and he was saved by accepting Jesus as his
It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad:
for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and
and is found.