The second time I received a one on one message from God was after I
got to work from a one hour drive from home. I had experienced an
incident which caused me to lose my temper while driving due to the
thoughtless and ignorant actions of another.
(I flipped the finger.)
I had been working on a character issue (temper/anger) for a long
time. I knew that losing one's temper and expressing the anger is
the bottom rung of murder. I got to my office and I was so upset at
myself for loosing my temper that I cried out to God internally..."I've
killed again,...why....why...do I do this?" Immediately
within my head came the words, fully formed and complete:
IT IS BECAUSE THEY DON'T LOVE YOU. IS
NOT MY LOVE ENOUGH FOR YOU? I DIDN'T PUT YOU ON EARTH TO BE LOVED.
I PUT YOU HERE TO LOVE MY PEOPLE.
Straight forward and true! So simple. We were not
put here on earth to love ourselves, but to give to others others
all that love that we would apply to ourselves. I immediately
turned and typed out the message and will never forgot it....which
is amazing because my mind was not blessed well with "memory". (Not
yet being "Restored", the knowing is not enough...I still must, each
day, strive to do this!)